Day 12 of 25

My friend Yoon set me a lovely gift for the holidays. A piece of yarn from Laos. She wished me many wonderful things while a monk prayed and tied it around her wrist. Thank you for this. It's very special. The jade earrings from Vietnam are pretty sassy too. Today was my last radiation of 2009. I'm off until Monday. The Dr. order X-rays today, I didn't quite understand why. Something about making sure they were avoiding my lung. I really felt worn out by three o'clock today. I'll be surprised if I make it to midnight. But I'm happy to enter into the '10s. I have many ideas and projects I'm looking forward too. I even start some MBA classes on the 20th. Maybe I'll meet Yoon in Vietnam in February. Many things to look forward too, I remind myself. Happy New Year to all.

Day 10 of 25

Vanessa was sweet enough to take me to treatment today. She is a special guest on the blog. It was interesting to read someone else's perspective on my small, secretive world of treatment. The facility is in such a quiet part of South San Francisco, you feel like you're sneaking up to the building. Today was x-ray day, to ensure my body is lining up the same as the original plan for treatment. The LINAC machine does it all. It turns clockwise until the x-ray arm is to my left. Then it turns counter clockwise and administers my radiation. Probably because I was with Vanessa and she's such a creative inspiration, I was thinking about interesting ways to document the treatment. It's so hard to describe. Should I film it with my own camera? Would they let me set one up in the Tahoe Room? What am i willing to publicly expose? Whether or not anyone reads the blog. I have my weekly appointment with my Radiation Oncologist, so I can ask for permission then. If I think I'll really do it. After treatment, Vanessa and I had a lovely lunch of yellow split pees and squash. Then we went for a peaceful walk on a Pacifica trail. The sky was an opaque grey and the forest - mossy and wet. we saw in this order, deer, a small, grey bunny and a beautiful bobcat. He was sitting in a field, observing. He seemed magical.